My six-year healing quilt
While engaged in intensive outpatient care after a second unsuccessful suicide attempt I picked up crocheting again, and learned how to knit and read knit/crochet patterns. Thumbing through pattern books at Michaels I found an interesting pattern. It was rated easy to medium difficulty so I bought the book.
- Your heart is broken, I know.
- It’s painful, I know.
- I love you so much I want to repair your heart.
- Heart repair takes time, and right now you and I have nothing but time.
- As you knit this blanket together so also am I knitting your heart back together.
- Each stitch is made with love, because I made and love you.
- I’m right beside you.
- You are a part of a larger heavenly quilt and purpose.
- You are important to me.
- It’s a lot of work putting this together, I know.
- Relax.
- There’s no hurry.
- I enjoy spending time with you, my beloved.
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A feature of this blanket is the hood or foot pocket I created. It wasn’t part of the original pattern. I call this co-creating. |
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Max as Cousin It. My first afghan |
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Birth of my daughter’s afghan knit with love just for her. |
I love the arts and am thankful for the much-needed brain break.
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I love crocheting myself. I find it fun and relaxing, not to mention a stress reliever. I need to find some new patterns because I am tired of making the same blanket over and over.
what a wonderful and very open post TY for sharing–I really like the footie/hoodie you added to the blanket. JOB WELL DONE =)
Wonderful post. Brought tears because I’ve been suicidal myself. I love your analogy of the quilt with it’s imperfections and that you can’t see them when you look at the whole. I also crochet and there’re many imperfections in my work, but when it’s complete, you can’t see them at all. One of the greatest revelations for me ever, I learned recently- God understands you fully. He doesn’t sit up above and judge your every wrong move or thought. He knows everything you’ve been through, exactly why you think and react certain ways, from your personality and all your experiences… he understands. And he feels all your pain with you. From the book “God Is” by Rene Schlaepfer
This is a beautiful post. I love how you intertwined it all with God. He did indeed knit you with love. Thank you for sharing His love with us. Prayers for you. I know you will indeed keep bouncing back up!
A family heirloom that no amount of money can buy. Truly priceless.
What a great keepsake for your family to have! I’m sure your daughter will cherish hers when you finish it.
This quilt is definitely a symbol of your life. I hope you continue on and on and on and on.
Thank you for sharing. Learning what love is makes all the difference. May God’s joy, peace and love fill the rest of your years. I mean that!